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I never keep posts public for some reason but I recently wrote a lengthy one a couple weeks ago. The gist of it was when I was at work at, this customers was being a complete ass... yadda yadda... and made me really feel like shit. I ended up crying a lot about it because no one has ever talked to me like that... especially not someone who didn't even know me... and I was doing all I could to help the situation rather than fight it but he still continued. (I later talked to my manger and she made me feel better... assuring me I did the right thing and the customer was trying to scam me)
But an even worse situation happened on Saturday. A man came in with a hooded sweatshirt over his head and told me to act quickly. He showed me a note that said something along the lines of "give me your money... I have a gun" and lifted his sweatshirt to reveal the top of the gun in his pocket. I quickly opened my till and gave him all of my bills... which was only one's and five's because we have a separate lock box for the 20's and over. It wasn't enough though... he told me to give him the 100's and I didn't have any... so he took the money out of the tip jars as well as the rolled coins in my till. Before leaving he said something like "I'm sorry my daughter is very sick." The next thing I did is kinda a blur... I'm pretty sure he ran out and then I ran to the back and called 911. It's hard to explain just how hard my heart was beating... I honestly thought I was having some sort of attack because I was so freaked out. The police came right away... we closed the store... my manager came and gave me a huge hug which was exactly what I needed... besides the drag I took of my coworkers cigarette which was also greatly needed. I got to leave work early... and haven't really been able to stop thinking about it.
I got to go home to Fremont the next day and came home to long hugs from my parents. I sort of forget how much I mean to people. My mom was even telling me that my dad was cursing after he got off the phone with him. When I called them on my way home from work I didn't think I was going to cry again... but when I had to tell my dad that a man with a gun threatened me... it all came back to me.
Everyone is telling me to quit... but not having a job isn't really an option... I'm graduating in the spring and then going right into getting my master's. I haven't decided what to do with the job situation but I work tomorrow so I'll probably decide by then. Knowing how much this affected my family has really opened my eyes to appreciating life as it is... and not taking shit for granted.

but it's been awhile since I've posted!
Nothing too exciting going on... hella midterms coming up in school... blah. As for work... I got promoted!!! crazy because I've only worked there for 3 months... but hey no ones counting! I am now a supervisor. :)! I'm very stoked because I am guaranteed more hours and getting paid more! wooooo
Everything else in Sac is good. I have a bunch of stuff to look forward to... such as...
-going home to celebrate my mom's bday with the family! I went home helllllla times last semester but now I'm lucky to have a saturday off. so it's been awhile!
-thanksgiving! Who doesn't love eggnog... pumpkin pie... turkey. mmmmm
-my 21st bday!!
-Seeing a 21 and up play with my family!
-Christmas!!!
-New years in San Francisco with my sisters!
-Then last but definitely not least... going to New York to see D!!!

now I really must go study :(

I am very relieved! I knew sacramento would be a better place for me but I really didn't know I'd like it as much as I do.
Right away I loved the environment.
I take the public transportation to school which has been really working out so I don't need to worry about parking. (AND IT'S FREE!)
I am also relieved that I have so many interesting teachers not to mention all of the kick ass sociology classes.
I LOVE how busy everywhere is. But at the same time I've been running into my friends.
I think it's great that there are so many chill places on campus that people just sit and relax before going to another class.
A very diverse campus. major plus.
The whole school seems dedicated and passionate about their major.
I honestly enjoy just walking around on campus... even though it's 100 degrees out. WEIRD. I never thought I'd say that.

:)

and I got my hair cut... kinda random actually. I was getting sick of my hair so my sister and I just went driving to see where we could go to get our hair cut. I go in... tell the lady I want a few inches off and POOF short hair. but I love it. It had to grow on me but I'm thankful that the lady fucked up because I probably would have never cut it short. <3

and Starbucks kicks ass. I love the company/coworkers/and new store I work at. BRAND new store so I was even in the pic for the ribbon cut. :P I even worked labor day... yay for time and a half!

there's more going on but this is getting kinda long. I miss my friends in monterey though and am glad I'm not too far away to see them.

I <3 Sacramento :)

My first day at starbucks is today! :) I start at 3... but I got ready too fast because I'm excited. I think I may have my hopes up too high... but we will see.

I got my grades back from the 3 summer courses I took and I got an A in sociology... B in ASL 2... and an A in my running class. I could not believe I even passed ASL 2. and for sociology... I must of done AMAZING on the final because I kept getting B's on the midterms.
ahh anyway. I was thrilled yesterday that all of my hard work payed off. :)

I should head off to work. :)!! I'll post more later.

(since now I know people actually read this!) :P

I'm hella procrastinating... BUT quick update:
I love wedding because I got to see my grandparents whom I have not seen in 7 years. !!! They came to my work today with my mom. it was soooooooo great seeing them since they now live in south carolina.
then my nana is coming on sat... then my aunt and uncle... and cousin.
My sister's wedding is on Sunday. so crazy. I'm really looking forward to this weekend.
Friday: going to napa to celebrate my grandparents 50th aniversery... !!!
Saturday:wedding rehersal and hangout with the family... you have no idea how amazing this is going to be... my whole family or even most of it has not been together in YEARS.
Sunday: My sister's wedding!
Monday: I better not be working... I put this day in that I needed it off a month ago... because I'm going to be in napa that night and it'd be a little crazy to rush back and work at 6:30 in the morning. :\ PLUS I'm expecting to have a hangover.
THEN FINALS... which may kick my ass... but I'm really looking forward to moving to sac!! :) many things to look forward to... Tami, you inspired me to update! :P

gorgeous ya?

I'm really starting to get used to it here. :)

I had my FIRST potential migrain yesterday... they hella run in my family... my mom gets them all the time. The main reason why I'm pretty sure it was one is because I didn't even think I was going to make it home. my head was pounding so bad that i had to shut my eyes while driving 70 mph. !!! I came home and went right into bed with my work clothes still on as well as my contacts. so fun. :( I went to bed and slept for I think 12 hours. I hella needed to catch up though. Saturday I worked 9 hours... then went to the basketball game... then to the dance. crazy! lots of fun though. ok i need to go back to my essay... ARG peace out.

I was fortunate to be able to get the whole week off of work for break. :)

Started my break off by going to Sacramento for lisa's amazing thanksgiving dinner. There was a really great group of people there and I'm really glad I went because I was pretty iffy about driving all the way there. but it was fun and I stayed there for a few days and even got to see Harry Potter.

Came home and went to see RENT with lisa and my mom. It was really good. I am so happy I'm able to see it again... and will be able to whenever I want to. It's so different than seeing it live... but there were many scenes that were added in the film because of all the possibilities it had with locations. I am definitely a RENThead for life.

then had thanksgiving dinner with the family. Lisa's roommate jenn also came down. It was actually really fun. I think it helped to have a couple glasses of wine because conversation was hella flowing and everyone was having a good time. food was great too. mmmmmmmm

Friday morning went shopping with my mom and sister... helllllllla busy. I couldn't believe how many people were at the mall at 6 in the morning. I got a couple of great deals for some gifts... but the highlight was when me and lisa kept trying to win a million dollars with this silly promotion thingy they were doing... we kept going back in line to get this paper where u pealed a piece off to see if u won... lol gotta love pushy people going crazy.

then hungout with Fremont friends! It was so great seeing everyone... and to go to that crazy ass game. I can't believe how intense it was... a lot better than any of the games I watched when I was actually in high school. grr even Tak looked hella good. It really was like a fat reunion though. so awesome. <33

saturday went shopping again... but then that night went and saw Pride and Prejudice. hellllllov great movie. I had no idea I'd like it that much.

back to monterey sunday. Going to see RENT again tonight with my friends here. I hope they like it!

procrastinating suckss... but it's unavoidable with me. :/

Last wednesday I went to the Fall Out Boy concert with Lisa. and WOW was it amazing! first group was really random... sounded kinda like kiss and they were all hella skinny guys with no shirts on... but wore lipstick... and animal print.eeekk Lisa and I took a pic with the lead singer later on that night:

Then Panic! at the Disco performed. SOOOOOOOOOO WONDERFUL. I just got into their album... and they sounded great. EVERY song rocks on "a fever that won't sweat out" I suggest you hear it!

Then Boys Night Out performed... wasn't a big fan. best part was the girl who played the keyboard because she had a good voice.

Starting Line was great. I never got too into them before... but I think they sound way better live than on their album. <333

Then Fall Out Boy.... !!!!!!!!!!! I honestly couldn't believe how awesome they were. They played hella songs from both their albums and sounded better than they did at the Warped Tour. Couldn't have been any better.

I have pics on my myspace page... but I'm a loser and don't know how to put pics under the cuts. :\

Sacramento was fun. Best concert person to go with would have to be my sister. We both hella get into it. <33

This weekend I've been working the shift... 5:30am-1:30 hellllla early.
Gotta wake up at 4:30am... and definitely not getting enough sleep... but I took a nap after work today...

so hard to leave my house for work on Friday... when I had to wake up early for work the next morning... didn't leave Fremont till 9:30pm. I just hella love spending time with my family. I'm definitely looking forward to going to Napa on Saturday to celebrate my mom's birthday with my older sister and her fiance. :)

Long ass week ahead of me... gotta finish this paperrrrrrr

PS
I need to stop dreaming about coffee... it's getting pathetic...before I dreamed about bagging groceries when I worked at Safeway... is it ever going to end!? geeezz

Today went really well... so well that I felt an urge to write in this thing. :P

It started with my ESSP 201 class... where we went to dig for sand crabs again. I love that class because I have so many awesome people in it.
The beach was really overcasted... but I still got to see dolphins! I swear 3 out of the 5 times I've gone I've seen them there. LOVE IT! I don't think it'll ever get old.

After class I had a job interview for this cafe... I'd never been there before but my friend works there and she said it was really nice and referred me to her boss.

It's in Carmel... a ritsey place where a lot of older people retire to... but it's beautiful. This one beach I went to last year was so amazing... but ya the cafe is way cute. hella small but cozy. Her boss doesn't need me for the hours she hired me... but wanted to anyway. :) so my hours will probably start out slow. which is good because I didn't want a ton of hours on top of classes anyway.

I was stoked I'd be working with my friend too. It was so cute that her boss bought me lunch... and let Heather eat with me too.<3333333
way good food btw... and not expensive!

I took pictures of my scuplture yesterday. I'll scan them when i go home. I hope they came out ok! I feel so old school with my film... haha

plans for the weekend include me going home to retrieve my new hubcap! woop woop

so today I took my friend to the doctor's to get her foot checked out. I start looking at the magazines and most are Runner's magazines. I've never really read them before but was curious to what they were about. I couldn't believe how interesting they are. They are filled with marathon tips... nutrient guides... and even how to choose the right running shoe. !!!!!!! I love it. so i read all the ones they had at the doctor's office... and am so motivated to run a marathon in the future. I know I can do it. It would be amazing just crossing the finish line.

ahh anyway.. so I took my friend and it was a lot of fun just hanging out... we went out to eat at this cute mexican restaurant then picked up her medicine for the foot. She's also a runner so it's cool we can totally relate when it comes to not being able to run. I feel bad for her because she can't for a week! ugg i've gone through that many times. so sucks. but when her foot gets better we're gonna run together.:) no more dangerous runs by myself for once.

Then I went to meet with my advisor after my science class. She was the best advisor I've ever had. it was short and straight forward. she even gave me the name of this professor she told me to email about my major. so perfect. :)
Then I came back and checked my mail and got the post card from my sister! so cute. came with this rad key chain. <333333

now I really need to work on my essay... due tomorrow. uggg but I just got back from a short run. How could I not run with all the inspiration I got today!? :P anyway, I'm looking forward to this weekend... I get to meet my older sister's fiance's family and celebrate her bday. :)

all is good right now.

PLUS the hot water finally came back on... we were without hot water for 3 days!!! I had the worst shower of my life last night... I ended up screaming the whole time while I tried to rinse out my hair with ICE water. good times. !!!!!!!! eek.

time for a HOT shower!

But today was good.

It started in my sculpture class... where we're doing this project that involves wood... and all of the different machines to cut it and work with it... which i have never used... and was pretty nervous about it because we basically just learned how to use them then went right into using them. But I started getting the hang of it and am actually really excited about the final project. :) I can't wait to tell my dad... hehe

Then I went to the mall because I had a bad dream last night that my friends and I went to homecoming and were the only ones under dressed... and it wasn't fun. so I say full out! I tried on this cream dress yesterday that has this like doo-dads on it at the top and it's pretty... but I didn't get it so i went back for it... and it's only $27!!! AHHHH so good. What a great surprize compared to the 68 it was marked down from. <333

I came back here and went running... got a wicked cramp though. so that wasn't too fun. :-\

BUT for my class... my "monterey studies" class. we went to the beach!!! ya that's right. It was really great though because there were DOLPHINS!!!!!!!! like right on the surf. so amazing. !!!!!!!!! Me and ashley were definitely excited. :P
it was awesome. and I plan to go running on that beach. It'll be perfect.
It's nice to get my life back in line.
I finished reading the book "P.S. I love you" which was good... but now I dont have a book to read. :( I went to borders but I didn't want to spend $14 on a book. booo so if anyone knows of a good page turner let me know and I might just splurg on it. :P

This weekend I spent at home. It's always nice to be home and just hangout with my parents. The main reason I went home though was to pick up my car!!!!!!!!!! yes that's right I have my very own wheels. :)!!!!! It's beautiful... silver 2000 mazda protege. <333

It was cute when I left on sunday... my dad video taped me getting into my car. :P best part was when I told him I needed to give him a hug before I left... so he sat the camera on the car so it could record us. <3333333333333333333333
I love my parents so much... I honestly wished I appreciated them more when I lived at home. I'm so grateful to be this close with them now.

when I did get here my mom called me twice to make sure I got back ok... and to make sure I found a parking spot... then she says "I'm sorry I called again I just miss you" !!!!!!!!!! I don't know what I'd do without them.

I had the most realalistic dream last night... I dont know if most of you know or not but I figure skated for 7 years. It was my life... I didn't even have pe in middle school because I skated so many hours a week that it covered the requirement.
anyway... I haven't in skated in at least a year or 2... and it never really bothered me because it isn't something I think about.
I quit because it was all I ever did... I didnt have friends in school and didn't do anything but skate... so I wanted to try something new and that's why I quit when I was a freshmen in high school to do cheerleading.

soo last night I dreamed I was skating... only I really thought I was. Everything came back to me... I could do everything I did years ago. It was incredible. I had the ice to myself... and it was so peaceful. I don't think I've ever had the urge like I do now...

I still have my skates at my house. My blades are really fucking dull... and the only person who sharpens them the right way was my old coach who I saw over the summer when I was working at safeway... it was soo great seeing him :) Hopefully if I go skating soon he'll be there.

I really can't wait!! <333

soooo randomly my roommates lexi and des tell me last week that they got tickets for us to go to the hurricaine katrina relief concert in LA... Lex knows all the little pulls to go into those kinds of things! For FREE!!!!! way cool...

so anyway. We left for LA (Lex, Des, Tami, and I) on Friday. and had like 3 hours of sleep... then it was off to watch Fiona Apple, Kelly Clarkson, Brian Wilson (beach boys) and the Red Hot Chili Peppers!

We were like 15 feet away from them... we even say kelly clarkson's butt crack. !!!

The best for me was Brian Wilson... I listen to the beach boys all the time with my dad... and for some reason I got hella emotional because it was just so amazing I was RIGHT THERE listening to them. It was truly a moment.

I would show ya pics... but I don't know how to do the "cuts" and I don't wanna post hella pics to annoy everyone... so here is one!
(I have a lot more on my myspace):P

I went home on Sat to see my house all redone. We have all new tile and carpet... and it looks really good. :)
I spend sunday with my mom and sista where we went to the mall and then to target to get a bunch of stuff... ANYWAY to the good stuff:
We went to coldstone... and guess who works there... anyone see "my super sweet 16" in fremont... with the three triplets?? yaaa well one works at coldstone in the hub. hehe I guess daddy isn't giving her enough money... I saw this because I actually new these girls when i was like 2. I was in the twins club... well my mom was so she could meet other parents with twins. and this was where i knew those girls... went to their house apparently. My mom knew their mom pretty well... and told me they got divorced because their dad said their mom wasn't "anymore fun." LOL um hi she has 3 babies... anywayyy they had a big house. I just thought it was interesting.

:P

hi... this was on the floor of albertsons... gotta love friends with digital cameras hehehe

I really don't think things could get any harder... I hate not knowing what is wrong. I hate not being able to talk to my mom. I don't know what to do. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on other note... I'm not surprised. This is the EXACT kind of thing I would expect for myself. but we will see.

I'm back at school:)
Right when I got here and unpacked most of my stuff... my roommates and I went to the Used concert at SJSU. It was AMAZING!!! 30 seconds to mars also performed... who I didn't know but right away I really liked them. Lex told me later that the lead singer is the guy in Requieum For A Dream... that's one of my favorites movies!! and I thought he was so hot in it... in a weird way. lol but anyway... after they performed lex and I MET him after the show!!!! and the band signed my ticket... it was too great. Then the Used performed and I couldn't believe how great it was. It was a perfect way to start this year!!!!
The weekend was also fun hanging with my roommates. One girl I haven't really talked to but everyone else is great. I don't think it could be any better:)

Today was my first day of classes... my first class started off with my professor walking up to the building with his dog Slipknot... lol cutest thing ever. That class looks like it's going to be fun. The only bad part is that I need to get supplies off campus... and i still don't have a car. :\ so I asked this guy I know... the guy I sorta hooked up with at formal and never called... and he said he could take me but we'll see. Hopefully things will start off better this year.
My second class was my ESSP class that looks like it is going to be really good. I have a bunch of friends in that class which was a good surprise.:)
My last class was horrible though... it's 4 hours one day a week. I had a 4 hour class last year but the teacher and class was really good so it wasn't a problem. but I dunno if I'll keep it since I already have 20 unites.

This was just a quick little update... still no car.:\ My dad is suppose to get it Friday... then work on it that weekend and *cross your fingers* I get it next week.

So far this year is really starting off well... I didn't think I would be this happy to be here... such a huge change from last year.:)